Thanks, appreciate your advice. My problem right now is convincing myself that this is all worth it. It's not going so well.
It's a difficult one to answer, because it all depends on you and how you feel.
If you will only ever be happy with an unreachable goal then maybe that needs working on first. I mean if you aren't really going to be happy weight / body wise, then likely the motivation wont be there. But if you can honestly say to yourself "I will be happy at x weight, and that is achievable", then its only a matter of short term vs long term.
I say only a matter, but that isn't an easy thing
. So it's kinda, if you could, tomorrow make yourself a certain weight (your target), and you know you would feel more comfortable and happy at that weight, then you know it's what you want, really.
If you don't think it would make much difference, then, more "meh". But, if you have depression, then that can be interfering with what you want, and how you see yourself and all of that.
I can only speak for myself personally, I know that I will feel a lot happier with myself if I can get rid of the last 20-30 lbs. I kinda know what that will do for me:
1. Women will find me a lot more attractive. That sounds crass maybe, but there isn't anything wrong with that.
2. People will treat me better / differently. As I lose that last bit, my body shape will change dramatically (much more of a v taper). I want to see how that pans out
3. I will be able to wear things like shirts and tuck them in and not feel self conscious (this is a surprisingly big thing).
4. I will be able to buy more expensive / stylish clothes because that will be my final weight (give or take) and I won't be jumping from large to 2xl (seriously, its ****ing annoying that this happens over the space of 15lbs).
Those things are more valuable to me than short term eating.
The thing with short term vs long term and weight, food is a pitiful drug
. The "high" it gives is mostly the anticipation, all you really tend to get at the time is a feeling of guilt and disappointment (which weirdly fuels the overeating the next time).
Not sure if this will annoy you / others, it's a difficult thing to talk about.
What part of the day are people at their lightest?
Not sure tbh, i only weigh in the morning. I imagine that as you drink more liquids weight would go up, but not sure.