I basically need to be pushed into a job
I just realized I would have a much easier time when society just puts me up with a job. I wouldn't need to apply for a job. Basically like school. A kid must go to school and there you follow the rules that are applied.
I would the perfectly fine with it if the government just send me a letter which says you need to sign up there to do that job for the rest of your life. Now I have to do it all by myself and it's quite clear by now that I don't have what it takes to succeed.
I can't sell myself, I don't really have any dreams or ambitions, I like stucture and fear responsibility.