I got my first job interview ever in my 24 years of life for tomorrow but cancelled just now. I got invited a week ago and I started preparing (looking at the company,their values, job description, practiced about at least 30 something question)
but yet I still could not do it. my head feels empty. i tried to do a mock by myself, and I could not even answer the question. i was blank. i even stick inteview questions around my room so that it gets in my head but yet ........
i had a mock interview during my college with the lecturers part of the module i took. and i did bad. i could not answer the question (eventhough its related to my degree), i blanked and my answer sounded so dumb. i feel thats the start of "interview fear".
I did have a difficullities when speaking with others (outside interview), my words gets all jumbled up and i start stuttering. but with time i did improve and i enjoy talking with ppl but sometimes if its in a serious situation, i freeze.
but now i dont know what to do with my life. i graduated last year. now 6 months of doing nothing. my cv has a gap now. i cant get a part time work cause i live with my parents and their house is really far away from anything. i just got my license last month and i got no car either so i cant go anywhere....when i told my parents..they were mad. my dad mentioned its just an interview, you may pass or fail, you would never know till u try. n i know that i tell my self that, but i couldnt do it. my friends were disspointed as well. i let everyone down.
i sent my dad a message saying that i'll get a job it just take time longer than the average person but i will get a job. he has not reply yet. i guess his mad.
i really want to get a job that related to my degree. its environmental sciences and i really like it. i feel so lost. i get nervous in everything i do. even for driving i was so nervous after 2 classes and cancelled the next class. but i went to the following one and my nervousness dissapeared. im hoping it is the same for this.
i just cant stop crying. i feel like a failure. i sometimes dont see a future.