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post #12821 of 12914 (permalink) Old 07-18-2019, 05:46 AM
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My anxiety got so bad yesterday. I wanted to find some comfort so I read my most recent diary (I haven't written anything in 9 months). I couldn't believe what I've read. I was in a really dark space, had so many suicidal thoughts. Always talked about how it will never get any better, if I died I wouldn't have any regrets etc. Well, I seriously don't remember going through such hard times. Life is weird. Time can really be healing? I felt bad for myself for feeling that way because right now I can't relate. And if I've never written my thoughts, I wouldn't know/remember those though times. It feels like that diary belongs to someone else. I felt like a stranger to myself.
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post #12822 of 12914 (permalink) Old 07-18-2019, 04:08 PM
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post #12823 of 12914 (permalink) Old 07-18-2019, 04:25 PM
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Is there not even one person in the world that I can relate to? Just one. That's all I ask.
Aren't you married? You can't relate to your wife?
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post #12824 of 12914 (permalink) Old 07-19-2019, 09:29 AM
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Aren't you married? You can't relate to your wife?
We can connect on some things, but she's successful and I'm a frickin' loser, so there's that.

Nobody loves me but my dog, and I think he might be jivin', too.
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post #12825 of 12914 (permalink) Old 07-19-2019, 10:57 AM
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My cousin passed away last week due to drug overdose and I don't want to say goodbye. All I can think about is us as kids and now...and I know he's no longer suffering, just wish he didn't suffer at all....

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I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night."
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My cousin passed away last week due to drug overdose and I don't want to say goodbye. All I can think about is us as kids and now...and I know he's no longer suffering, just wish he didn't suffer at all....
I am so sorry for your loss. "hugs"

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post #12827 of 12914 (permalink) Old 07-20-2019, 12:37 PM
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post #12828 of 12914 (permalink) Old 07-21-2019, 06:33 PM
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My cousin passed away last week due to drug overdose and I don't want to say goodbye. All I can think about is us as kids and now...and I know he's no longer suffering, just wish he didn't suffer at all....
R.I.P

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post #12829 of 12914 (permalink) Old 07-22-2019, 06:52 PM
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I have trouble flying my R/C Planes. I've flown for a long time, but something has been bothering me and now I can't seem to do as good of a job anymore.
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post #12830 of 12914 (permalink) Old 07-23-2019, 12:57 AM
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Still grinding man. Still fighting. Its so hard trying to stay focused when you have nothing to go on. Living paycheck to paycheck. Life man. Be out of this misery soon. Just have to stay focused.
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post #12831 of 12914 (permalink) Old 07-23-2019, 09:46 PM
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I'm so nervous about this interview for a crappy, lower-tiered job with same company which is less crappy as my current job but still somewhat crappy overall..that I feel like quitting the entire company and jumping ship. I'm running in fumes and its just not working. Once and when I do quit, I will hold an e-pizza e-party and y'all are invited. My heart's racing. I don't like the idea of no income but if it means happiness, then so be it. Fugggg. You must bring your own e-beberage, however.
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post #12832 of 12914 (permalink) Old 07-24-2019, 02:21 AM
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@coeur_brise I don't know whether to wish you luck with the interview or hope that you blow it so badly that they fire you. Probably the latter? Yeah, that way you get to collect unemployment I think.

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post #12833 of 12914 (permalink) Old 07-24-2019, 06:11 PM
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@Paul . It is hard to fired, unfortunately. They want you to be there. Unless i burn down the building.



But thanku. Hopefully it's a short stint, if I get through and then I'll hold the e-pizza party.
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post #12835 of 12914 (permalink) Old 07-25-2019, 08:51 AM
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Still grinding man. Still fighting. Its so hard trying to stay focused when you have nothing to go on. Living paycheck to paycheck. Life man. Be out of this misery soon. Just have to stay focused.
i know right................

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I really need to see someone whom I haven't in a while. I need to. They impacted and made me feel like an actual human being and this is what I have done, just not see them.
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post #12839 of 12914 (permalink) Old 07-28-2019, 04:40 PM
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I feel very depressed. Which blows. I tried a little today, but I just feel very out of it and numb. I'm not sure if anyone else can relate but I tend to find when I'm in that state it's difficult for me to focus on my surroundings. I also feel like other people tend to notice I'm off. Which also isn't a great feeling.

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post #12840 of 12914 (permalink) Old 07-28-2019, 11:41 PM
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Failed today. Try to bounce back. Just drank too much and got depressed out of boredom. Have to get on a good streak. Its hard. Gonna be tough to get up for work tomorrow. Reset button again. One day at a time.
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